"Easier when you don't know 'em," the Bull points out, eyeing Dorian. The way Dorian's looking at him promises something irritating in his future, Dorian seeing too much and maybe deciding to do something about it. That's what he gets for having smart friends, he guesses. At least he can tell it might be coming so he can brace himself.
And hey, maybe if Dorian does decide to start fussing or something, it'll give him something else to think about. Doesn't seem like he's had a lot of that. Might be good for Dorian, at least, even if the Bull by this point just wants everyone to pretend his shitting leg doesn't exist until the whole problem goes away, one way or the other.
He leans a little bit more on the long counter table, focuses on breathing for a second, wants a drink. Something in the here and now to focus on, hold it in his hands and think about the way it tastes instead of running through the other times he got that same injury in the same spot, running through the stupid shit he did back then and what he could have done for Dorian if the joint and the ligaments and all the tiny little bones in there had been just a little bit stronger and how it'd felt when it was healing and how it feels now and always building all these comparisons in the back of his head like the same old crap's going to up and start telling him something new out of nowhere.
He wants to kick something's ass, he wants to fuck, he needs something that'll take him out of his head so he has more focus to spare for Dorian, who really needs the companionship right now. He'll go off and do some deep breathing or something later. For now he'll just do what he can, try for some topic that might give Dorian something to complain about. Shouldn't be that hard, and Dorian always seems a little bit happier when he's complaining.
"And when it's someone you faced down some of the really tough crap with-" He goes on, shrugging. "Not everyone's used to that. Still, if she's acting like everything's fine she's got to let you back up into the library soon, right?" Where the Bull won't be able to follow him. But that's tomorrow's problem. "You'll be able to go back to research, see if all those books up there have anything good inside 'em."
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And hey, maybe if Dorian does decide to start fussing or something, it'll give him something else to think about. Doesn't seem like he's had a lot of that. Might be good for Dorian, at least, even if the Bull by this point just wants everyone to pretend his shitting leg doesn't exist until the whole problem goes away, one way or the other.
He leans a little bit more on the long counter table, focuses on breathing for a second, wants a drink. Something in the here and now to focus on, hold it in his hands and think about the way it tastes instead of running through the other times he got that same injury in the same spot, running through the stupid shit he did back then and what he could have done for Dorian if the joint and the ligaments and all the tiny little bones in there had been just a little bit stronger and how it'd felt when it was healing and how it feels now and always building all these comparisons in the back of his head like the same old crap's going to up and start telling him something new out of nowhere.
He wants to kick something's ass, he wants to fuck, he needs something that'll take him out of his head so he has more focus to spare for Dorian, who really needs the companionship right now. He'll go off and do some deep breathing or something later. For now he'll just do what he can, try for some topic that might give Dorian something to complain about. Shouldn't be that hard, and Dorian always seems a little bit happier when he's complaining.
"And when it's someone you faced down some of the really tough crap with-" He goes on, shrugging. "Not everyone's used to that. Still, if she's acting like everything's fine she's got to let you back up into the library soon, right?" Where the Bull won't be able to follow him. But that's tomorrow's problem. "You'll be able to go back to research, see if all those books up there have anything good inside 'em."